Here I go again..

Hi everyone, I am aware that I haven’t updated my blog or anyone about how I’ve been since July and my op. The bit of the tumour they  couldn’t get out has unfortunately grown, and it’s now about 3 cm. So I had another urgent mri, and they talked about me at the mdt meeting. The only option is to have another operation to try and remove most of it and blast the remaining bit with gamma knife. The other option is to leave it and frankly that isn’t an option – ever. I have too much passion for life and a greater desire to live. I’m not going to lie. I am more scared this time. Not of the op itself, but the risks have increased about changes to/loss of speech, understanding, and processing – the important things!! My handwriting has changed dramatically, and my typing skills have reduced, so I am starting steroids in the morning, which will hopefully help the inflammation and help reduce these symptoms. I should be seeing my surgeon next week so they can operate before Xmas. So operation Christmas is on (no pun intended!!) Dec’s being finished this weekend, halfway through pressy shopping, and will start non-perishable shopping! Generally, im feeling good, I’m well apart from this wee fecker upstairs. Just can’t think about not going through this again, as I’m not giving up yet, and dying is not an option! Not yet – not for a long while. I’ve done it once, recovered well, and so I’ll do it again, and hopefully, we’ll get rid of the wee bugger this time. I’ll keep you all updated along the way.  If you have any prayers or positive vibes, please send them my way. Thank you. Lots of love, Ali ❤️ Feck cancer xxx