I have been trying to post this next chapter for what seems like for ever!! There just doesn’t seem to be that ‘extra’ time as work life and home life interlink and it becomes the ‘norm’. But sometimes you have to stop, take a look around you and take stock.
Christmas has come and gone, and our lives, for most of us, returns to some form of ‘normality’. Christmas has become a distant memory but I hope you all had a good one, spent with family and loved ones, surrounded by things that make you feel happy and make you smile. What a year 2018 was and what will 2019 bring?
So here we are almost in the middle of February. It never ceases to amaze me how quickly time goes by and how our lives take shape along the way. Time doesn’t stand still for any of us, no matter what we have to deal with. Time can be unkind, and for some of us running out, but yet the time you have to spend with your family and those you love and care about is the most important time you could ever have. Never take it for granted.
My New Year started with a positivity that I haven’t had for some time and I am in a ‘good’ place. That positivity still continues and I am finding an inner strength I didn’t know I had or perhaps forgot I had. I am becoming more aware and starting to recognise my ‘stress’ triggers and their signs. For many of you who know me well will know that I was/am a rather stressed person! I would get stressed over the slightest little thing – some of which were rather petty and rather silly! But when we look back we can reflect and see our mistakes, our over reactions etc and it’s easy to ‘punish’ ourself for how we reacted in those situations. In everything we do in our lives, whether it be good or bad, we need to learn from it and move forward. Always look forward – to the next step, the next chapter, whatever that may be.
The only time you should ever look back is to see how far you have come.
My one year ‘anniversaries’ since my diagnosis, my operation and starting my chemotherapy have past. I still find it hard to believe that I have fought Cancer twice now and I am still under the age of 50. In truth it is bloody scary and is with me every day. But my life continues to go on as if nothing has happened. Life is so precious and something that many of us take for granted – Don’t. We don’t know what is around the corner and what will meet us on our path.
Now that my Cancer treatment journey has come to an end, my journey and my recovery still continues. I wear my scars with pride as they remind me every single day of what I have been through, what I have fought and how far I have come.
On the 14th February 2019 it will be 14 years since I had my first mastecomy and fight with cancer. I never ever thought that I would have to do it all again – but I did, and I’m here to tell my tale. This time round I feel like I have grown and developed as a person. I am different. Maybe I am older and wiser, maybe it was a bit of a been there done that attitude or just sheer determination to make a difference. I believe I am here for a reason. I’m still not sure what that is yet or what my role is to be, but I have had cancer twice now and I don’t want to do it again!
So what have I done? How am I different? That’s a whole new blog and would make this one too long! So watch this space.